possible-chaos

There is so much art, writing, stuff that I want to do today, but it’s not happening…my brother is have surgery on his hand and I am watching the kiddos, love watching them. So it’s a play day.

i’m feeling it today…that formlessness of nothing being done, not my writing, not my painting, not my weaving…it’s all out there yelling for me to do something and i am doing nothing. but cleaning, cleaning clothes, the house, the kitchen, and not doing what i want.
i feel like i am trapped, i have no my space, i have our space, and there is no place for me to just be me…where i can do all of my wants and not have someone going what the?
i need a my space….so that my formlessness, can grow.

The grandkids are coming today…sooooo! It’s a play day. Oooohhh yeah!
I dont get to see them much so it will be a fun day.

I’ve been helping my mom clean and have not gotten to do anything I wanted to do…
I do have to pull apart my weave and start all over, that spring I use was way to hairy and made it really hard. So back to the drawing broad. Oh well, it will be fun.

Well, I did do a little weaving, and little writing, a little reading…a little.
Won’t be nothing tomorrow.

I made the loom frame and now lacing it, then I will start weaving on it. I’m going to try and make hand bags and backpacks. And then sale them…if they look as good as I hope.

I always have so many ideas floating around in my head…I want to make a loom, and make homemade rugs, and backpacks and handbags…oh, it would be so much fun. Another way to release the energy that just rushs through me all the time.
I just have to do something….

Do you ever feel like you need more hours then what come in a day?
We had an awesome weekend in OKC, then came home to a rush, rush, rush and did not have one moment for me to write or really clean house. Had to get ready for VBS…which, comes before writing.
We had fun with the kid.
So that will be all this week. I hope to get a little writing done. But this summer is swiftly passing. And I hate that….

I did not get anything written today…had to go get my hair cut, toes, nails, eyebrows done for this weekend. Spent the whole day in Amarillo.

May be tomorrow will be a good day, then this weekend I will get nothing done, we will be in OKC…I’ll try, I’m taking it with me, but not so sure I will get it done.

well, i am done with school for two months, then have to go back…yuck, just two months, 8 weeks, about 56 days….uuggghhh….

i do get to work on my writing now. i feel this story, the characters for like shadowy forms that i can see do thing, but i can’t get a clear pic of them yet. they are but a shadow to the dream i have for them, the one they drift in and out of…